Rants and Roses

i miss him so much.
ive really fucked it up now. 

There was a little bird that had a song so sweet it brought colour into a world that was grey.

One day a girl heard a snippet of the little bird’s melody and it warmed her heart.

Every day she got closer to the bird till one day it would sit happily in her hands and sing out for hours.

The girl and the bird were happy for a long time, but the girl became scared that others wanted the little bird and its song for themselves.

Fearing the world returning to grey and never hearing the song again the girl held on tightly to the little bird.

One day she opened her hands and realised she had held on so tight, for fear of losing the bird and the song, she had broken its little neck.

She would now never hear the song again and live in a world of grey crying over the poor broken bird forever.

i honestly dont know why im even here. 
i hate this. 

i dont want to be here anymore.